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Isaiah 43:1-7

Isaiah 43

1 But now, God’s Message,
the God who made you in the first place, Jacob,
the One who got you started, Israel:
“Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you.
I’ve called your name. You’re mine.

2 When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you.
When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down.
When you’re between a rock and a hard place,
it won’t be a dead end—

3 Because I am God, your personal God,
The Holy of Israel, your Savior.
I paid a huge price for you:
all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in!

4 That’s how much you mean to me!
That’s how much I love you!
I’d sell off the whole world to get you back,
trade the creation just for you.

5 “So don’t be afraid: I’m with you.
I’ll round up all your scattered children,
pull them in from east and west.

6 I’ll send orders north and south:
‘Send them back.
Return my sons from distant lands,
my daughters from faraway places.

7 I want them back, every last one who bears my name,
every man, woman, and child
Whom I created for my glory,
yes, personally formed and made each one.’”

I don’t think I have ever really read this verse until my roommate, Shane, showed me it. I’ve been struggling lately with grasping the concept of a God who would die on the cross for me when he didn’t have to. I have a father that LOVES me. He loves me for who I am and wants to heal all the pain, frustration, and heartache.

I think it’s hard to believe that someone would actually care enough to chase all over the world and through all the sin to find me and love on me. I have a hard time grasping that. That I am worth him leaving the 99 and going after me. That no matter what I have done, what I am involved in, ect. He still cherishes me just as much as the person standing next to me. And the question I can’t figure out is “Why?” Why love me? A mess up and screw up and a failure? I can only just sit back in awe and just try to sort it out in my mind.

My prayer is that God will reveal Himself to me more and more this summer. That he will tear down the walls that I have built for security and allow me to trust Him and those around me.

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Something is Up…

Guys, I cannot even begin to express how caught up I am in God’s grace right now. Alot of the other interns are blogging, and they are posting some great stuff and hopefully I will link em up soon, but I don’t know if they are getting the picture of what is about to happen this summer at BigStuf. It is so much bigger than me, and quite frankly bigger than BigStuf 2009. It seems everyone is risking their careers to chase after God’s desire for this summer. I think that is BigStuf’s goal every year, but MAN, there is a thickness to the air and I have been an emotional mess these past two weeks. This verse hit home yesterday morning:

3 I repeat my warning: The person who accepts the ways of circumcision trades all the advantages of the free life in Christ for the obligations of the slave life of the law.4 I suspect you would never intend this, but this is what happens. When you attempt to live by your own religious plans and projects, you are cut off from Christ, you fall out of grace.5 Meanwhile we expectantly wait for a satisfying relationship with the Spirit.6 For in Christ, neither our most conscientious religion nor disregard of religion amounts to anything. What matters is something far more interior: faith expressed in love.7 You were running superbly! Who cut in on you, deflecting you from the true course of obedience?

I think God called me to risk a lot over the past few years and even this year. Little of the decisions I made paid off, but God has molded and created an awesome web of his intentions and purposes for each risk. (more…)

Orange Dr.

So the past two weeks I have been very lucky to work at two different conferences with BigStuf. The first one was Orange Conference. Orange is by Reggie Joiner of ReThink. Reggie hosted the whole shebang with Lanny as sidekick. It was held at the Gwinnett Arena, which was also where Catalyst is held in the fall. The difference between Catalyst and Orange is that Orange has a more intimate feel too it. Whereas Catalyst is just so dagum HUGE. Don’t get me wrong, Orange was about 4,000 people I believe, but they were spread out over the arena and the conference center. Out booth was pretty awesome (pictures to be added soon). It took about 2 hours to build and was hands-down the best booth there. The walls we used as backing was basically steel sheeting molded to a wavy wooden frame. When we took some COLORados and shined them up on the walls it created a pretty cool illusion. The walls are actually pretty light and stackable. You could easily carry four or more at a time. (more…)

Haiti Bound

Destruction.

So, before I got the internship for BigStuf this summer, I knew that we were not going to Kenya…I was a little bummed. But, I knew that God had placed the opportunity to do the summer camps a second time. Why would I turn it down? Like I have said in previous blogs, God is really pushing me to trust Him. I don’t know why I have had such a hard time doing that. Maybe because I feel like there were many opportunities in the past for me to take control, fix things, or help out with and no one would trust me or give me a chance to show what I can do. To be quite frank, that has been a struggle for me for the past few years… people trusting in the youth. The youth are rising generation that will soon take the place of today’s adults. Why not trust them, give them opportunity, allow them to see their strengths and weaknesses. But…that is a whole other blog post…

So I decided to trust God and go with the camp internship again. Not going to Kenya provided a new and challenging experience. If we were going to promote 410 and Compassion this summer, my experiences in Kenya would prove vital to helping students and adults understand the dire need of the Kenyans. But BigStuf was moving away from Compassion and towards promoting 410 Bridge and their child sponsorship program called BrightPoint. So there was a lot of new things I would experience this summer. Before they took their interns to Kenya and Tanzania, they did a Mystery Tour where the interns would spend a day serving, learning, having fun and each night would travel to a new location… so this was where I think our summer pre-camp experience was heading… then Haiti suddenly flooded our lives. (more…)