[This was a post that never made it in 2011. Now I am giving it a chance in 2012. Just as relevant!]
Tonight I have this feeling in my gut. It has been with me all day. It is more of a question. Where is this all going? My life? Your plans?
When I got off my 40 day juice fast the next thought I had was, “what am I supposed to do now?” I had that same feeling a few days ago when I got news that the Daraja Children’s Choir was not permitted to come to the United States. It’s one that cuts you deep and sends shivers all over. It is a feeling where nothing make sense and turning to God is not the only option, it is the option.
A few lines to a song popped into my head as I began to read the updates of fellow Daraja friends.
Lord, I don’t know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt
Oh, Lord, you are the author
Redeeming what’s been done
You hold us in the present
And all that is to come
Ironically, I used these same words during some of the most trialing times in my life. God has blessed me so much during the past few years that these words were erased from my mind. He continues to bless me, and these words are now directed in a new sense. All I can do is trust Him and follow Him. Even when I don’t know what to do or how to make sense of things. He never changes and he is still faithful. The author. The redeemer. Holding this all together.
Months after I meant to post the above, I found this in my drafts folder. Finding it just as relevant, I published it. Our staff at BigStuf has been watching many of our churches’ students struggling with disease, car accidents, tumors, ect. Our own team has even been afflicted with our own trials. We’ve pushed through the tough times only by the grace of God and know that he is most definitely holding this all together.