So. Two days ago I passed the 30 day mark on my juice fast. How is it going? Well, it has been challenging for sure, but I have stuck to it without giving up. I am in the final stretch, and in about a week, I will be able to have a decent meal. It’s pretty exciting, also extremely scary. Questions still pop in my head as to why I have stuck to this for so long. I have to reassure myself of the goals I set.
1. Clean out the cravings and toxins I have
2. Learn better discipline
3. Honor God by spending more time with Him
4. Understand my emotions
5. Lose weight and have a better body
I’ve stuck to these with additional rules for juicing. I am not asking God for anything for he has already given me so much. What I want is to be able to clear out the clutter in my heart and allow myself to get to a place where I see Him more.
I will admit that today was not easy. My selfishness took hold. What was it that made me so cranky? I strained my eyes from staring intensely at the computer for too long, and I let the headache that ensued get the best of me. It was the first headache I have had in awhile not brought on from lack of water or juice. But in my fault I found strength. I controlled my emotions to the best of my ability. No binge eating or giving up. No sulking over past mistakes and critiquing myself.
Am I happy with today? Yes and No. I am satisfied that God gave it to me, and that I was productive and worked hard at my job. But I need to pace myself and my body in this home stretch. I need to listen to it, as my body has lost so much weight and has had little to rely on. I need to rely on God, family and friends.
So here’s to the home stretch. I am not expecting glitz and glamour. Just hopefully a humbler and more thankful man.