40 Days: Look At Yourself

So, going into this fast/detox my hope was from the start to have this sort of supernatural phone conversation with God; like this no meat and dairy think could somehow rekindle any distance between him and I. But what I have found is there are different parts to a fast, and it is part mental and part spiritual.

You see, telling your body that you are not going to put any solids in it is sort of a ringer. By day three my body was laughing at me and throwing me some nice headaches. Looking back at it now I see that my body was yelling at me, “you depend on me, Trent!” Quite honestly, it took ten or so days for me to realize that.

I depend on food more than I depend on God most times. It is a comfort and when my day is not going the way I want it to I run back to it. Let’s see my comforts:

  • Starbucks – Cafe Late or Double Shot Coconut Frappe
  • Tin Drum – Tikka Marsala
  • Chick-Fil-A- Spicy Chicken Combo (Large)
  • McDonalds – BigMac (w/ Fries)
  • Zaxbys – Sweet and Smoky Combo with Sweet Tea
  • Wing Zone – 10-15 wings of asst. flavors
  • Jim & Nicks – Piggie Combo

Now, I did not eat these every meal, but they are my “go-to” for not just when I am sad, but bored, lonely, anxious, upset, prideful, and guilty. If you are not happy with where you are at with your weight, spiritual life or happiness, is it because you are substituting your food for God’s love?

Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NLT)

So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31 (NIV)

Are you eating and drinking for self-fulfillment or are you doing it to edify God?

That may seem silly to think about, but think about how people ate in the Bible or even in the early 20th century. Meals were always with friends and family. You broke bread together and shared food. Every meal was a chance to be thankful and bear each others burdens. Now all we can do is share our burdens to Starbucks or Zaxbys instead of friends and family or even God.

So this is where I am at right now. Why did I eat foods so unhealthy? Why can’t I be fulfilled with little things? Why do I run to them more than God most times? Food owns me and I am breaking it’s bondage.

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