Guys, I cannot even begin to express how caught up I am in God’s grace right now. Alot of the other interns are blogging, and they are posting some great stuff and hopefully I will link em up soon, but I don’t know if they are getting the picture of what is about to happen this summer at BigStuf. It is so much bigger than me, and quite frankly bigger than BigStuf 2009. It seems everyone is risking their careers to chase after God’s desire for this summer. I think that is BigStuf’s goal every year, but MAN, there is a thickness to the air and I have been an emotional mess these past two weeks. This verse hit home yesterday morning:
3 I repeat my warning: The person who accepts the ways of circumcision trades all the advantages of the free life in Christ for the obligations of the slave life of the law.4 I suspect you would never intend this, but this is what happens. When you attempt to live by your own religious plans and projects, you are cut off from Christ, you fall out of grace.5 Meanwhile we expectantly wait for a satisfying relationship with the Spirit.6 For in Christ, neither our most conscientious religion nor disregard of religion amounts to anything. What matters is something far more interior: faith expressed in love.7 You were running superbly! Who cut in on you, deflecting you from the true course of obedience?
I think God called me to risk a lot over the past few years and even this year. Little of the decisions I made paid off, but God has molded and created an awesome web of his intentions and purposes for each risk. I feel like I am seeing a bigger piece of the picture this year. God has rewarded me we so much and I am so unworthy. Seriously… I just want to serve and not be noticed, but God is throwing me into BIG situations that He feels totally confident that I can handle. I swear half the time I am being asked to lead groups, build environments, and run areas of camp or wherever I am at and I can barely talk because my voice is shaking so bad because I am so caught up in the emotion of watching God move.
My fellow interns are awesome and I love them all so much. From the waffle house trips to late nights at the beach, to group work-outs… there is something God is up to and I can’t wait….